Worth The Friendship?

Lucky that I'm capable to flexible my personality between introvert and extrovert my entire life.

I used to have an introvert personality,  where I focused more on internal thoughts, feelings and moods rather than seeking out for external stimulation    having a small group of close friend was enough for me, people tend to think that I'm quiet & fierce and may find it very difficult to get close to, nonetheless I find it very nice to be alone  

Lucky to be said that, I've changed because of the environment due to the job I took up (as GOD don't pay for every prayer I recite).  I think during my working time it's very important for me to open up myself to different perspective and life opportunities as I'm working as Freelancer (you gotta pose infront of 9 or more than a photographer) continue with part-time promoter then an admin, online business ( it's not only selling online, I too experience working like those China girl holding 2 big  recycle bag selling CNY cookies) and also a sub-teacher . It's really important. Once there this lady told me before "your strongest power may be your weakest point when you are too arrogant".

 I just find it's easier to get through life if you're pleasant & humble 

Although I don't mind idle chit-chat or keeping up the conversation with my friends bout the little joke, as I'm growing, there is one thing I know for a certain; as the saying goes "Life is too short for fake cheese or fake friend"

                                               

There you see, I'm in the thick it right now. I'ma post-graduate students, working my ass off most of the weekend to earn some token, juice my idea out of the brain for upcoming Final Year Project, not involving in any reliable relationship as I'm not lucky enough to find someone who truly love me nor giving me all the attention I need. On good days, I'm a hot mess, spending money like DIVA on payday. On bad days, I'm holding it together with duct tape and a prayer.

I wanted to be a good person, a good friend, but I don't have time for games, I can't spend my few free hours on "friends" who only call when they need something or are passive aggressive when we have a misunderstanding. I don't want to worry about every word that comes out of my mouth or getting judged on my every move. I don't want to compete with other in how we look, or popularity, or by how successful I am.

I am just too tired at the end of each day to pretend I'm something I'm not. AIN'T NOBODY GOT TIME FOR THAT SHIT.

Whether it's a new beginning for a diet plan, changing a new job or going back to school after summer breaks, the person you may count on the most may show you a less than supportive side. No matter what these fake friends say, they just aren't your friends. They are people who came into to your life and compete with you then drag you back,so they can move forward feeling good when they compare themselves to you.

They are not afraid of you success but will afraid that your success will make them look like a failure. They are self-centered so they  can't think very far past themselves. You may have experienced all this with diets, financial planning and moving a place. Those most afraid of failing will be the worst with your potential success.

Previously, I got this friend. Doesn't really know how to entitled "it" but "it" just make me so heartbroken as if I really had a breakup. I was too dumb too to treat "it" nicely but never regretted as we have such a good time together. I think I'm the only one having good time but "it" wasn't, as "it" doesn't appreciate nor value the friendship. In the end, should I say is a fr-enemies or what? I heard rumors about me from other about "it" saying me... with evidence some chats screenshots. It really broke as I've done my best & pour all my effort towards our friendship. Though it would stay but it doesn't. "it" can't accept when been reprimanded and this recalled back on what "it" told me before, "Who are you to question me? What is your power to do so?" 

During all the time we had, I thought "it" will really cherish and appreciate all of the effort I've done but no. I was wrong.

In fact, I think being yourself and honest enough is the best way to make friends and keep them. By losing friends that aren't good for you, you get to play with the friends who have your best interests at heart. Real friends support our goals and want the best for us. If you set a goal and notice the others trying to dissuade you, that the red sign the person you thought was a friend is terrified of their failure if you success. Gently, back away and leave the bubble. You may need to be alone for awhile, before you meet true friend and that is better than to drain your energy dealing with fake friends.

P/s: Most of them who are inside this pic are worth to be appreciate.. I still got more :")